On the occasion of Mercury (planet of communication) conjunct a retrograde Venus (planet of love), I address these words to love:
Love, thank you for teaching me how to let go.
Of who I thought I had to be for you. Of who I thought I could never be for you. Of what I thought I had to have of you. Of what I thought I could never have of you.
Of why they were right and I was wrong about you. Of why they were wrong and I was right about you.
Of always and never when it comes to you. Of either and or, winners and losers, heroes and villains in the stories I believed about you.
Of the fear that I was too much for you. Of the fear that I was not enough for you. Of the fear of my weakness in the face of you. Of the fear of my power in the presence of you.
Of those who arrived in my life to co-create a shared celebration of you. Of those who entered and exited faster than I wanted them to, but always in exactly the right timing for my evolution through you. Of those I seemingly allowed to overstay their welcome, those whom I took the risk to release at precisely the pace of my transcendence fueled by you.
Of the lie that I have to be partnered to be with you. Of the lie that you are something I must wait to receive from another before I can choose to experience, embody, express you.
Of the barricades my ego constructed to keep me from remembering what my heart has always known I'm here to do - to be you. To be love as lifeforce, and to support other people in remembering themselves as this truth.
Of anything other than awe at and gratitude for the journey back home to myself. Back home to you.
Love, thank you for teaching me how to let it all go.
Today is a great day, astrologically speaking, to take some time to speak directly to love in whatever way feels true for you. It might look nothing like what I’ve shared here. Maybe you have grief, fear, rage, that you must communicate to love. Maybe you have questions, whens and whys, that you must ask of love. No right or wrong way. I promise, whatever it is that you have to say, love is actively listening to you today. And, I strongly suspect, always.